Senior Year!

October 26, 2013

Well ya’ll I am officially done with my first quarter of senior year. I have a feeling this year is going to go so quickly. I apologize for the lack of update until now. This quarter was definitely the hardest one yet and when I say I had absolutely no free time because of homework, I am not exaggerating. My classes were the book of Isaiah and the Life of Christ in the Gospels. Each class on its own is a hefty workload and as far as I know no other class has taken them together before. In fact when seniors from last year found out they were all shocked that they would do that to us. While it was extremely hard, it was also so good and having the combination of both classes at the same time was really cool.

In the Life of Christ the teacher opened up the class by stating that the reason the gospels aren’t read more is because we don’t get anything out of them. Most of the time, if we are honest, we read the Bible to find some application for our own lives or to get our daily devotional for the day. The first week he said we are often guilty of being more in love with idea of Christ than with Christ Himself and I really had to take a long hard look at how true that might be in my own life. Jesus is a real man and how can I be in love with someone I don’t actually know? I think one of the things that impacted me about the class was the idea to ask Jesus questions as you’re reading different stories in the Bible. Jesus lived 30 some years on earth. He has memories of all those things that happened. I have to be honest because although I had heard that before I didn’t really try it because I didn’t think He was gonna talk back anyway. My teacher said He probably won’t answer back, but He might. But either way ask the questions because it makes it more real to your own heart. It was so encouraging! Whenever anyone has said that in the past, I understood them to mean ask Him because He’ll talk back. But this was the first guy to be real and say actually no He probably won’t answer. It may seem silly but I feel that gave me the permission to start doing it and it’s been really fun to think about what He may have been feeling or thinking when certain things were happening.

The book of Isaiah was also really good although very overwhelming. I mean the book is 66 chapters so it’s hard to cram it all in 8 weeks. I have read through the book of Isaiah several times and was somewhat familiar with it. I think my biggest take away from the class was how merciful, kind and tender the Lord really is. We see over and over again how Israel was constantly rebellious against the Lord and did their own thing. But no matter what they did, the Lord continued to go after them and chase them down with His loving-kindness. I have heard people say they don’t like the Old Testament because God is so mean, but honestly after this class, all I could see was how tender and compassionate He is. The way He deals with Israel is the way He deals with us. He is gracious, slow to anger, rich in love and good to all. He is just so kind. Even when I am faithless, He remains faithful. It’s so comforting to my weak little heart!

It’s really interesting too because this quarter I have Minor Prophets with Dave Sliker who is the same teacher I had for Isaiah and He said His goal for this class is for us to see God rightly. It looks like God’s just gonna continue to break down my wrong understanding of Him as mean, harsh and distant. Praise the Lamb! The other class I have this quarter is the book of James. I am so excited about this class! It is taught by Dale Anderson and he actually used to be on the nightwatch. Last year when the class was offered, he was still on the old nightwatch schedule where all the students are on the new. So it was not a nightwatch friendly class. But all the nightwatch students prayed and asked God to make it work for us this year and He totally did! He is so kind! Dale is just so tender and has cried every class period so far. It’s so beautiful to see an older man cry when He talks about Jesus. This one may be my favorite class…too soon to tell though.

I made a big change this year as well. I switched my concentrations. I had signed up for CEC again this year but about a week before school started I had a conversation with Bobby who is the guy over the nightwatch students and I expressed how I felt really left out by not choosing house of prayer leadership last year. I loved CEC but I didn’t really learn anything that I hadn’t previously learned in my other schooling and the one reason that I chose that concentration, he didn’t even cover all year. Bobby actually apologized and told me that the way that I was feeling was not my fault but a design flaw with the school and that he would take full responsibility for it. Then he made it super simple. He said go where you’re going to have the most fun. So I switched to the House of Prayer Leadership concentration and have not regretted it or felt like I made a bad decision. I’m still teaching my 5 year olds on Sunday mornings though and loving it!

The school is also doing something new with juniors and seniors. They started a student led prayer room at IHOPU. It’s like the one in the normal prayer room, but it’s manned by students only. We were all placed on a team and we also have a harp and bowl (the model that they teach in the music school and what they follow in the normal prayer room) lab each week with our team. I am my team’s admin so I get to serve in more of a behind the scenes kind of way. I love it! I haven’t sung on the mics yet, but we’ll see if I get the courage up to do that at some point this year. I also get to lead my own d-group of freshman girls. I was so excited to be asked and it is so fun so far. I make them a home cooked meal every week so we eat together and then they just share their hearts and we pray together. My goal has been to create a safe loving environment where they feel they can share and be vulnerable. From what I can tell they all seem to feel that way. I would appreciate prayers as I lead them and disciple them though. It’s a big responsibility to shepherd other people’s hearts and I really want to love them well.

I know that was a lot! Thanks for reading =)

Prayer requests:

Vision: Next month is my birthday! Last year I asked the Lord for vision for my life and He answered in a powerful way the whole week after my birthday. I am asking for that again this year, but even greater because I have a huge life transition happening when I graduate and at this point I don’t really know what I am doing yet. So clarity for my next step would be spectacular!

My heart: Just prayers for continued healing. My biggest desire is to be confident in God’s love when I walk across that stage in May. Pray that He would encounter me in a deep way in my remaining time at IHOPU.

Senior year: As the leaders of the school, we have all been feeling a lot of pressure and warfare so far this year. Please feel free to pray however you feel led about that.

Tipping the Bowls

July 21, 2013

About a month ago I was at a birthday party and I struck up a conversation with a guy that was on the nightwatch. He was kind of telling me about his background and how he sometimes organizes mission trips to Israel. He asked me if I had ever gone anywhere and I told him no that I had never really had a heart for missions but I was totally open to going if the Lord made it clear that he wanted me to go somewhere. He asked me if I had a passport and when I told him no he said, you need to get a passport, and then you will put yourself on God’s radar. To be honest I had never even entertained the possibility. I just assumed if I ever went somewhere that I would just get a passport then. But I decided that I was going to go ahead and do it, but secretly. I wasn’t planning on telling anyone. I had no idea how to get one or where so I just figured I would look online or something when I had the time.

Well a couple days later I went to mail something at the post office and as I am walking in there is this huge sign on the door, GET YOUR PASSPORT HERE! So when I mailed my package I asked the lady how I would go about getting a passport. She gave me an application and said to fill it out and then make an appointment and it cost $135. I don’t know why but I hadn’t thought there would be a cost. So I took the application and I said ok Lord well you know I don’t have an extra $135 just laying around so if you want me to get a passport then you need to provide the funds for it. Then I set the application aside and didn’t really think too much about it.

Well the next week, my mom and aunt came for a visit and so we did what we always do when people come to visit, we went to the prophecy rooms. When it was my turn the first guy was saying a bunch of encouraging stuff and then his very last statement he goes, “I also feel to tell you to get your passport ready if you haven’t got your passport. I sense God, there’s going to be an invitation to come. It might be short term it might be long term. Somewhere on a mission field or mission trip. I don’t know how long or when but I just felt to say get that ready.” I about fell out of my chair! 3 confirmations! I have never received that many confirmations for anything before.

I was convinced this was the Lord. So one day towards the end of June I sat down and was writing in my journal. I don’t know why but somehow prayers just seem more real when they are written down. Anyway, I was writing in my journal and talking to the Lord about my life and all of my concerns about money and school and the future. Before I had started writing that day I had actually gone back and reread old entries and was reminded how I have had the same few prayer requests for literally years. I have been praying the same things over and over and outwardly have seen little answers. Then I remembered a teaching that a guy gave during this year’s signs and wonders camp. He talked about the bowls in heaven in Revelation 5:8 which are filled up with our prayers. When he was teaching the kids he told them now we know there are bowls but the thing is, we don’t know how big the bowls are. There might be a bowl that is super small and it only takes like 1 or 2 times for the bowl to spill over and the prayer to be answered. The bowl might be super big and take hundreds of prayers before it tips, we just don’t know. So as I was praying this time I said ok Lord I will do my part and fill out the application but you know I don’t have the money. This really seems like you but could I please just have a power encounter in my finances? Mike Bickle has told countless stories of times where he needed an exact amount and God brought him that exact amount. And it wasn’t really even about the amount, it was more the heart connect of oh wow you really do see me and know what I need. So I asked the Lord for $135 and for tuition, but not just because I need the money, because I want Him to confirm His pleasure over the way I have chosen to live my life. I want the money so that I know He is pleased with my decisions. I looked at the clock and saw the time and the last part I wrote was, “What if this was the year God? What if you went above and beyond to lavish your love on me simply because that’s who you are? What if now is the “suddenly” of God? Could it be now? Could I see some answers to my many prayers this year? Would this prayer today at 2:27 pm finally tip the bowls around your throne and pour out answered prayers? Would ya God?”

So after I prayed, I filled out the application and even anointed it with oil and consecrated it to the Lord. Then I went to bed. The next morning I got up and went to the prayer room. When I came home at 6 am I realized I had forgotten to check the mail the day before. When I opened up the mailbox I saw that there was a check from Grace Fellowship. Now this was super strange because I was not expecting anything from them. I thought oh wow maybe they found some extra money and were able to pay the remainder of my tuition, but the check was made out to me, not IHOPU. So I opened it up and low and behold it was a check for $500!!! Out of the blue for no reason. I couldn’t tell who it was from. There was no name on it. All it had was a small phrase in the little memo part of the check that said for missionary support. So I thought it was for the passport but it wasn’t the exact amount so then I thought well maybe I should save it and put it towards tuition.

The next day I got together with a friend and I told her the whole story. Then I said I think the check is for the passport but it wasn’t the exact amount that I asked for so maybe I should save it. She is very wise and always gives the most wonderful advice. She said I know you wanted the exact amount but what if the Lord decided to bless you above and beyond what you needed simply because He can? She said no Amy it said missionary support. You get your passport and you use the rest towards your monthly living expenses. And then you trust that it’s just a down payment and the Lord will provide the tuition when the time comes. So after praying about it, I felt like that was right so I went to have passport photos taken. The post office lady told me that if you have AAA they will do them for free. So I checked out the website and it turned out that since I have the basic membership they were actually $5. But without anything they were like $15 so I decided it was worth the extra time to drive there. Every little bit helps right? So I got there and the guy was having a hard time with the computer system. He said well let’s just take your pictures while the computer does what it needs to do. Afterwards, the system was still doing funky things and he couldn’t get it to work right so he said you know what just go ahead and take the pictures for free. I got my passport photos for free! Sure it was only $5 but like I said, it’s not the amount. It was just another confirmation that this is the Lord. So I sent everything in and paid my money and now I am just waiting 4-6 weeks to become the proud owner of a U.S. passport.

So I don’t really know what the Lord is doing but it seems as though He is getting ready to take me on an adventure of some kind and my heart is really excited at the prospect of what it might entail. But more than even that, I am excited to think that my prayers may have finally tipped the bowls. He answered immediately. Like so immediately that the check may very well have been in my mailbox at that exact moment and I had no idea. What if this is the season? Would you join me in filling those bowls? The more prayers that go in, the sooner they tip out =)

College Station Ministry Trip

April 19, 2013

Howdy Ya’ll!

Yup that’s right I am back from my ministry trip to College Station. Thank you to everyone who prayed for us and partnered with us financially. It was an awesome trip! We drove down to Texas on Easter Sunday and then we got back to Kansas City late the next Saturday night. A typical daily schedule looked like waking up bright and early to be on the campus of A&M for a morning prayer meeting at 7 am. Then around 10 a group of people would stay behind on campus and do some evangelism/ pray for physical healing. If you didn’t stay on campus, then you either came back to the College Station House of Prayer (CSHOP) and either played or sang on a worship team or did CEC with the kiddos. Then we had a few hours break and that evening there was a teaching, what we called an encounter God service (EGS). A couple of days we even did prophecy rooms. I think the teams prophesied over like 100 people. Crazy!

One of our main focuses on this particular trip was to bless the moms. There are several young couples with small children at CSHOP. Most of the time, the moms do not get to be in the prayer room because they are taking turns serving. So one of our main goals for the week was to take the kids off their hands and give them some time to just be in the prayer room and soak. My main focus was the children’s ministry (CEC). We had between 20-30 kids depending on the day. The oldest one was five and the youngest was 11 weeks old. The majority were like 1 or 2. Everyone else on the team rotated through all the different activities, but I did CEC the whole time. I did it for like 7 hours a day. Man was it exhausting…but so worth it!

The very first day that we were there, we were outside playing with the little ones and Cynthia, the lady who is kind of in charge of the prayer room came out and told us the sweetest thing. She said right now all of the moms are sitting together in the prayer room just praying and worshiping. She said they had just realized that in the whole 3 years the prayer room had been going, they had never once all sat together like that. That was enough for me. Even if nothing else happened that week, I knew that was powerful. But of course there was more. The moms were so blessed and you could just feel their excitement and appreciation. They were also really thankful to sit in the prayer room with their husband. One lady said that normally they have to take turns with the kids so they don’t get to be in there together. That week they did =)

My favorite thing about our time there was not just that we were babysitting, but we were actually getting to teach the kids the Bible. They had already learned about God the Father and Jesus the Son so I got to teach them about Holy Spirit. Man I love Holy Spirit! The first day we talked about Pentecost and how little flames rested on all the people who were in the upper room. Then we made a fun craft where each kid had a headband and they colored a flame and attached it and wore it. I wish I would have taken a picture! 20 kids running around with little Holy Spirit flames…powerful!

The next day I taught them how Holy Spirit is our teacher and how we have to listen very carefully to hear Him. So we made big ears by cutting a paper plate in half. We attached a pipe cleaner and then glued ears on that said something about listening to Holy Spirit. Ya’ll these kids are amazing. I was telling one of the dads that his daughter was coloring fire on her ears. Then he told me a story that was crazy. One of the guys was getting ready to preach at CSHOP and the dad walked over to his daughter who is 2 and another girl who is 4 and said hey let’s pray for him he’s getting ready to preach. The 2 year old looked out the window and saw the guy and was like no he’s already got the fire on him. Then he turned to the 4 year old and asked her if she wanted to pray. And she said the same thing. Who are these kids ya’ll? Sure the crafts were cute but I really believe that week there were seeds sown and the lessons went deep. I got a couple of testimonies from a couple of the moms at the end of the week. The ears really impacted them. One mom said that one night the 4 year old put on her ears and said I have to put on my ears and talk to Holy Spirit because I haven’t talked to Him in a while. Then proceeded to pray Holy Spirit give me ears to hear your voice. I love you. Amen. Precious! Another mom said her daughter put them on and then put them on mommy and daddy and said you need to hear what the Holy Spirit is saying. 

My favorite night of the whole trip was the second to last night and I had not had a chance to eat dinner yet so someone brought me something and I snuck out to eat it real quick. When I came back in, I just felt the pleasure of the Lord over that room. The kids were having so much fun and the adults were full of joy. It was awesome! I thought wow if this is how I feel, how much more the Father? It was a sweet kiss from the Lord.

I was not able to be a part of the other stuff since I was in CEC the whole time, but I did hear testimonies of physical healings and there was even 1 guy at an EGS service who gave his life to the Lord and even got baptized that night. It was such a fun trip! My main take away however is that the Lord really has given me a gift to equip the next generation. Because it comes so naturally to me, I just assume everyone can do it, however when working with the people who are not necessarily gifted in that area, I quickly realized that it is something very precious that the Lord has given me. I feel very confirmed that I am where I am supposed to be and doing what I am supposed to be doing. Which is what I was hoping would happen.

One night while a I was there I had another dream where I was holding a baby and their head fell off. I had purposely not held the 11 week baby at all until then because she was tiny and of course I was afraid. Well the next day after my dream I said forget you stupid devil. I went and held the baby. And guess what? Her head didn’t fall off! Praise the Lamb!

Last story just because it’s really funny! One night a little girl asked me to read her a book. So I pulled her up in my lap and we started reading the book. All of a sudden she starts shaking and I am thinking oh no I wonder if she’s scared. But we were reading Jack and Jill. Nothing scary there. Then she stopped shaking and started crying. I asked her what was wrong and she said her pants were wet. That’s when I realized what happened. I pulled her off me and sure enough my entire left leg from the knee down was covered in pee. Haha what can you do? The best part about it though was the next day during the lesson, we hadn’t even been talking about it and she interrupts the lesson and goes, sorry I went potty on your leg. I appreciated that =)

By Faith Amy...

  

January 20, 2013

Happy New Year! Don’t you just love the start of a new year? A time to reflect on your past year and think about your life? Especially on New Year’s since I am always at the Onething conference I think where was I this time last year? How was my heart? Man 30 was my best year so far! I loved 30!

So as most of you know on Thanksgiving weekend I turned 31 and I actually had the privilege of going to a wedding and celebrating a good friend. It’s funny because I try to not make my birthday a reason to think about the fact that I am not married yet and have not started my family, but seeing as I was going to a wedding on my actual birthday, I was kind of confronted with it. Haha So I was like you know Lord it would be awesome if you could give me some vision for my life. I mean I am turning 31 and don’t get me wrong. Most days I love my life and actually love the fact that I don’t have the responsibility of being a wife and mother, but if I were to meet my husband tomorrow, I mean it’s not like I would complain or anything. But here I am a third year student at IHOPU. Which means I only have like a year and a half left and I am already starting to get the question, so what are you going to do after you graduate? Would you please just show me what You’re doing and why You have me here? So the night before my birthday I went to bed asking for a dream and nothing. The day of I didn’t get anything and then that night I was like ok Lord last chance tonight in a dream? But I woke up and of course nothing. I was a little discouraged, but to be honest it’s not like I really expected Him to answer.  

So anyway that next week I went back to school and on Wednesday in our Romans class, Holy Spirit totally hijacked the class (I love when He does that) and Dave Sliker started talking all about the next generation and how important it was and for maybe like 30 minutes to an hour we talked about families and spouses and then we got into little groups and prayed for eachother’s future spouses and children. One of my friends was so sweet and really felt like she wanted to pray for my kids so she did. When it was done, I really felt like the Lord had done it just for me. I mean sure there were others in the room that I’m sure were touched but I really thought it was just for me. Then that same day in our CEC practicum we had a guy come in a give us a presentation on the 4/14 window. The 4/14 window is part of the 10/40 window, which you may have heard of. The 10/40 Window is the rectangular area of North Africa, the Middle East and Asia approximately between 10 degrees north and 40 degrees north latitude. The 10/40 Window is often called "The Resistant Belt" and includes the majority of the world's Muslims, Hindus, and Buddhists. Anyway it’s called the 4/14 window because in the 10/40 window, the greatest population of people in that geographic location are between the ages of 4-14. Which means the majority are children. Now I had heard of this before, but when he gave the presentation, it was like he was simply reiterating what Dave Sliker had said that very morning. I felt like both classes were complete confirmation of eachother. Then on Friday morning in the prayer room, the same girl that prayed for me in Romans class pulled me out of the prayer room and told me she got a word for me and proceeded to give it to me and then pray over me. Ya’ll I have never gotten a word like this before. It was so encouraging to my heart! Here it is:

I read a verse yesterday and felt like it was for you related to what we talked about in Romans class (raising up the next generation). 

"And your ancient ruins shall be rebuilt;

you shall raise up the foundations of many generations;

you shall be called the repairer of the breach,

the restorer of streets to dwell in." -Isaiah 58:12

You are going to be a spiritual mother to generations long after you die. I feel like you are going to have a multitude of spiritual (as well a natural) children who can trace their spiritual heritage and inheritance back to you.

You are going to be key in turning the generations that follow (specifically your own family line) back to the Lord. You are going to restore the ancient heritage of those in your family line who loved Jesus. It reminds me of the righteous kings of Israel who repaired and restored the temple after it had been shut down for generations by wicked kings. 

You are going to clear a path on the "ancient streets" our spiritual mothers and fathers walked on (Jeremiah 6:16, Song of Songs 1:8) so future generations can walk them. You are doing this just by living the way you do, following Jesus, you are making the way easier for them. This is how you are a Forerunner. Your lifestyle is your message and it prepares the way of the Lord. In the time of John the Baptist preparing the way of the Lord was something a city would do for a king when he came to visit a city. They would clear the street and make them as smooth as possible for his entrance into the city.

I got a picture of you on an overgrown dirt road going through a wilderness. You were on your hands and knees digging up boulders and weeds and throwing them off to the side of the road, clearing the way. It was slow, hard work but you were moving forward and the path was getting clear bit by bit. Then you reached the end of your path and Jesus called you to Himself and you went to be with Him.

Then children came and walked to the end of the path you cleared. It didn't take them long at all because you cleared the way, but they still had to choose to walk it. When they got to the end they saw that it went even further and began to clear the way the same way you did. The road grew longer and longer until they were called to be with Jesus as well. Then more children came and started to clear the road where they ended. It went on like this for generations. The road grew longer and longer because you started clearing it and others followed after you, even after you were gone. 

I got another picture of a street paved with gold bricks in the New Jerusalem. It was called "Amy's Road" and was put there in memory of the time you spent clearing the path. I believe that this either represents the fact that Jesus will reward and honor you publicly for the time you spend clearing the road, or it is actually the real reward He is going to put in the New Jerusalem for you. He sees the time you spend clearing the path and it’s as precious as pure gold to Him.

Your love for generations you will never see is the same love Jesus had for a people who had yet to be born when He poured His life out for them on the cross. You are pouring your life out for generations you will never meet, who may never know the labor of love you did for them. Your love for people you will never meet is precious!

So then the next morning I was in the shower and I had this sudden realization, Oh my gosh. You actually answered my birthday prayer didn’t you? That’s what this entire week was about- You giving me vision for my life. He’s never answered me that quick before. So on Saturdays I have a small accountability group with some girls on nightwatch, who I absolutely adore, and I was sharing my week and everything that had happened. And one of the girls goes, Amy He didn’t give you a dream because you could easily dismiss a dream. He chose to speak in class, and then it went to a smaller context, your CEC practicum, and then He gave a word to friend, and last Holy Spirit confirmed it to you Himself when you were in the shower this morning. Talk about an answered prayer! He’s so just so kind. 

Then to top it all off, I served in CEC at the onething conference. On one of the mornings Dave Sliker came in to talk to the kids. We did worship and then he got up to give his message and he goes, you know I was gonna talk to ya’ll about Jesus but when I came in here and was looking around I was asking the Lord who you guys are and he told me so now I have a completely different message. I love when that happens! Anyway he started by saying you guys are missionaries. You know how when you’re little and people ask you what do you want to be when you grow up and you say doctor, lawyer, teacher? Well the Lord wants to give you a new vision for what you can be when you grow up, a missionary. Now initially I was annoyed and thought great that’s all they seem to be talking about around here. We’re equipping you so you can go out into all the nations and preach the gospel and now they’re trying to convince the kids too (just being honest here). But then he said something that completely shifted how I saw being a missionary. He said did you know that there are people living on the tops of mountains and in the lowest of valleys that don’t know Jesus? God is raising up a generation, your generation, that’s gonna say they’re not singing to Jesus there. They need to be singing to Jesus there. And they will go there and start singing to Jesus and because they are singing to Jesus, others around will start singing too. It was so simple but I thought wow God if it’s really that simple then of course. Why wouldn’t I go somewhere and sing to you so that others can see how beautiful you are and start singing to you too? For the first time in my life I could see how being a missionary made sense. Then Dave asked if there was anyone in the room who felt like this was them to stand and we were going to pray for them. So a good number of kids stood up and I went around and was praying for them and I just had tears streaming down my face as I was praying. It was a really beautiful moment. At the end of that set, one of my friends, my evangelism buddy from the blitz trip first semester, was like Amy you’re awesome. He was like you’re a really good leader, but then you also worship. And the kids are watching you. And I thought huh if that's true, then that’s confirmation of the part of the word that said, “You are doing this just by living the way you do, following Jesus, you are making the way easier for them. This is how you are a Forerunner. Your lifestyle is your message and it prepares the way of the Lord.”  

When I first started going back to church, my pastor gave a message on the by faith chapter, Hebrews 11 I think. At the end of the message for the prayer time, he asked us to ask the Lord to complete this sentence. By faith and then your name… So I was like ok cool let’s see what happens. So I said ok Lord by faith Amy… and He finished it with “Led the next generation into the Lord’s battle.” Now you know I struggle with knowing whether or not I actually hear God, but this was not something I could make up. I mean why on earth would that have ever come out of my own mind? So I’ve known that I am called to the next generation, (whatever that means or looks like) but I feel like I am finally starting to see a glimpse of what that could look like. I don’t know if God will call me to be a missionary. I have a sneaky suspicion He might, and if He does, I know He is in the process of preparing my heart. But whether I go or not, I am called to raise up those who will go. I am called to love Jesus and sing to Him, and as I do, the next generation will see me singing and want to sing too. It’s not about me, it truly is about the ones coming after me. It’s about God getting the glory and the honor that He’s due from every tribe, tongue and nation. Because when that happens, He will come. And oh what a glorious day that will be! The wisdom of sitting in a prayer room night after night singing to Jesus will be justified when I finally see Him face to face and look into His eyes of fire!